Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Up all night again with insomnia

The only thing I'm not doing is sleeping or studying. I'm learning technology management and it is so fucking boring. I cannot read a single page before I get distracted by the internet, TV or my own obsessions and thoughts. This is really going to effect my grade because I will have a quiz and final coming up real soon, not to mention many assignments that I'm late on. Oh dear lord, wait who?

To friend or not to friend....?

When it comes to Facebook "friends" the term is used too loosely. I take friendship serious. I'd rather have 5 real friends than 500 fake virtual friends. I haven't had many friend requests on FB mostly due to the fact that no one knows who the hell I am. I don't use my real name, or my picture. There are over a dozen people out there who have the same name as me on FB. I wonder how many people have searched for me and turned their profiles instead.

I've always been very secretive about my last name and many of my friends have never known it. I've seen on FB all my old friends from high school who I really don't talk to anymore. Most people on FB reunite with all their old high school friends, I haven't. There's a reason who we lost touch perhaps, and that's because we didn't have much in common. So why would I then want to reunite with them? I have only one friend from high school that I still keep in touch with in real life and on FB.

There's a term I use for FB people who friend everybody, I call them "Facebook whores." These are people who are trying to get as many friends as possible and will friend anyone and except friend requests from anyone. I must admit that I hate the idea of friending someone that I don't really know well. Partially because I fear they may not accept it and partially because I'm very private online. I do wish I had more friends on FB though. I could start friending everyone randomly.

People who have 200+ friends must be in the business of being a FB whore. It's like a high school popularity contest. I do think that FB has changed the culture. I've heard people saying and writing that a relationship is not official until it is broadcast on FB. If someone rejects a friend request it could be taken personal by the rejectee. I think I would. Imagine you meet someone, a friend of a friend, hang out one day, and then friend them on FB only to have the request linger for days and weeks. You know they've been active on FB because you can see their activity. Then next time you see that person should you bring it up? If so how do you do it? What is the person rejecting the friend request going to do? How should they explain it to the person they're rejecting as politely as possible? No matter the explanation the friendship is most likely going to be strained a bit.

This goes on to my earlier posts about why I hate social networking sites. Now you can't just have a casual friend anymore, it has to become "official" on Facebook. Now almost every time you meet someone becoming friends on FB is standard procedure, like shaking hands. There will be more pressure I'm sure to make relationships official and public on FB too. Well FB might die off like the way MySpace did, although I think FB will be around for at least another 5 years reigning supreme.

Monday, February 15, 2010

I have so much and yet I'm still so depressed

I have so much to be thankful for, I have so much that so many others dream about. Yet, I lay awake at night contemplating all that I don't have and all that is wrong.

Am I simply one of those people who is never satisfied no matter how much he has?

It is the dead of winter now. I am looking forward to having a wonderful spring and summer. Sunny days are ahead. I have good friends and I have many exciting things to do in the future. It's true that some people really piss me off, some people I would rather not ever see again. They exist and I cannot change that. Their memories exist.

I kind of wish I could forget about my past because some of it is too painful.

Look toward the bright side. I eliminated one of my biggest sources of depression over a year ago. I will never again feel trapped the way I did all those years. Good times are ahead.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Can an Atheist be Moral?

Can an atheist be moral, or be a person of upstanding moral character? The quick answer that I've heard from many Christians is of coarse "yes." Now with that being said, since an atheist can be a moral person, why does the atheist need to accept Christ into their life?

If I as an atheist can be moral, without being a Christian, that what purpose does Christianity play then? Is accepting Christ into my life more important than being a person of high moral character? What is more important: The acceptance of Christ or the moral foundation to live by? If the answer is the former than it is clear that being a Christian and accepting Christ is more important than living by the morals preached by Christ.

Now the theist will say something like: Well if you don't accept Christ, even if you have your morals right, you're not believing that they are divinely ordered and that they are merely man-made and arbitrary. Well, as I have written before I think all our morals are to a degree man-made. I think there are some natural morals like the one about killing for example, it clearly can't ever be moral to kill for no reason, but it does get tricky when we mention war, self-defense, and fighting over survival.

Bottom line, an atheist can be moral and these morals don't necessarily need to be divinely enforced for a person to live by them. We must be watchful for evildoers who want to erode basic decent morality from society as well as those who want to enforce supposed laws from God (Shar'ia Law for example) on us.

Are Atheists Just God Haters?

There is an argument that atheists simply don't like the idea of being ultimately judged by a God and therefore we reject God, the judge, altogether.

Well, I still have to obey the orders of society. I don't not believe in the law, police or government. They are very real and the consequences of breaking our man made laws are very real and serious also.

I think there are some atheists who reject God because they don't like being judged. That's not my case. Sure I don't like the idea of having my every thought known by a supernatural deity who can tell me what to eat and who to have sex with.

I consider myself a moral man. The morals I abide by are the more reasonable ones not the crazy scrupulous detailed moral rules created by schizophrenic desert Jews thousands of years ago. If those ridiculous rules mean the difference between going to heaven or hell, so I'm told, and I reject them, that is not why I am an atheist.

I am an atheist because I don't see any real evidence that all these moral codes to which I am ordered to live by, are the work of an omniscient deity instead of the aforementioned Jews, which I believe is the real case.

I don't kill, that is one of the orders right? The moral codes that I think are reasonable I live by and the ones that are clearly ridiculous I disregard and I don't think that I'm really any different from any other "cafeteria" Christian.

Monday, February 8, 2010

A Saturday night bible reading

A friend and I spend a Saturday night reading the Bible and the Koran a few weeks ago. It was fun and interesting. I have a lot to learn about Christianity and Islam. I wish I knew the entire Bible and Koran front to back. I'd apply them to all my arguments against their teachings which I learn more and more about.

In referring to slaves the Koran says that if a slave owner marries his slave's wife, then he must set his slave free. I thought that that was really nice of Allah, since it would be terrible for the male slave to now see his wife, former wife, now married to his owner. But the whole moral point to me is that Allah allows slaves in the first place.

The Koran just like the Bible justifies human slavery. It's interesting. I am still very new to the Koran and have yet to get into its details. As I learn more I'm sure there will be a few surprises.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Back to religion

I'm still into religion its just that personal issues have cluttered my thoughts recently. I was reading the bible and koran recently with a friend. We were going over the details and lies that it holds.

I'll have more on religion later on but right now I have a job interview in the morning that I must prepare for, and that means trying to get a decent nights sleep. Goodnite.


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