Thursday, December 31, 2009
At the stroke of midnight 2000 I was atop my former best friend's apartment just a few blocks from where I am now. I'm suppose to go to a friends house in an hour. New Year's and Christmas always get built up all year long and they usually never live up to their reputations. I did have more fun this year as I planned through my New Year's resolution last year. I spent the last week with my mom who I only see about twice a year, it was the same as usual.
I look back at past New Year's, last year I was waiting a flight back to New York. I like the idea of spending some time in a house or apartment and getting drunk and high and partying and bringing in the new year with the ones closest to you, instead of a bunch of strangers. I overcame some of my demons this decade and hopefully I will continue to overcome the things that hold me down.
Happy New Year's to all. Peace and Abundance.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Maybe I need God to get me motivated. I thought about that and I know I can't go down that road. I am cursed with this consciousness, forcing me to think about things. I need to start getting motivated. I was thinking, maybe I need a life threatening experience to motivate me? Maybe I need to come close to death or suffer some big tragedy to make me realize what I have? I don't believe in karma or any of that crap. I believe shit just happens. So I don't think that God or the universe will put me through some tragedy to teach me a lesson. We should all try to learn from our life experiences for the better. Absolutely. I think I can learn to appreciate my life and all I have with out tragedy. It will need work though.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Let's look at hip hop's morals and break them down. Generalizing a bit, in hip hop culture stealing what you don't have or can't afford is alright, in fact its recommended. Women are all either bitches or hoes, depending on their attitude or number of sex partners, and they are to be used like pieces of meat and treated like shit. It's ok to drop out of school and sell drugs, because "real niggas" don't go to school, come on. It's perfectly fine to use violence as a way to solve just about every problem, even murder. "Real men" get women pregnant and move on to others.
Now when you have a culture that raises generations of young people with these values it is no wonder that blacks and hispanics drop out of school at the highest rates and end up in jail the highest rates. I am by no means blaming hip hop or its greater culture for the problems of minorities, as these problems existed for many years before anyone set up two turntables and a microphone. But what hip hop culture did was it adopted the worst aspects of the 'hood, glorified it with out any realistic way of addressing the issues, and instead just shrugging its shoulders and saying "that's how it is."
I'm glad that hip hop culture is changing to the point where we don't see this huge gauntlet of credibility that rappers must pass through as much anymore. Rappers can be a little preppy and don't have to have grown up in the projects and have been shot 9 times.
The past is the past, let's look ahead now for our future and the next generation's future. I want to see an end to the violence and apathy I see in the inner city. I want to see more minorities involved in science and technology and philosophy. I want to see more minorities graduating school and getting regular jobs. I want to see an end to the gang culture that permeates through minority males all over the country. I want to see peace, prosperity and positivity. I want an end to the culture of ignorance.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Now if your against gay marriage for other reasons like the Qu'ran or Torrah you fall into the same category as the chrstians. If you're against gay marriage for other personal reasons like you think that it is scientifically unnatural, then we can talk because animals do engage in gay sex, and gay people are born gay, that is the definition of natural. They aren't created in a laboratory. That would be unnatural. If being gay was indeed a choice I'd be totally against gay marriage, but it is not and it is natural. Here is my definition of what marriage should be in terms of the parties involved: Marriage should be between two consenting adults, period. No animals, no groups of 3, 4, or 5 or more, just two consenting adults.
The way I feel about marriage is this analogy: We've all had deep arguments with the people in our lives, our friends, parents, coworkers etc. Now imagine yourself at that point when you were in the middle of a ferocious argument with that person and someone ran up to you and asked you to sign a contract to promise to hate this person for ever and ever. You would think that's ridiculous because you know that you will eventually not be as angry with that person after some time has passed. I see marriage as being that ridiculous. Asking me to sign a life long legally binding contract based on an emotion like hate, or love I think is ridiculous. Love and hate are emotions that are are temporary and wane with time. Marriage is til death do you part.
I mean I do believe in love and being faithful to one person, but I don't like the idea of expecting it to last forever. I like the middle ground between being with one person forever and ever and being a player. It's hard to explain like a lot of stuff is.
P.S. The "L" button on my keyboard is starting to fuck up and
I have to hit it really hard to work. This sucks.
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
I was into myspace early on but then didn't like it. I don't like the idea of everyone I've ever met being able to contact me. I guess I like privacy. I don't want everyone to know everyone I know, or even certain friends from knowing everyone I know. I don't want everyone i know from having access to me. I like to disappear from time to time from certain people or from all the people I know. I don't want them to know what I'm doing or who I am doing it with. I don't want them to even have a clue, such as a remark made by someone on my wall or someone else's. I don't like that fact that rumors can spread fast on social networking sites. I don't like how girls you date can be checking up on you, and how almost all of your business can be out on display.
Of coarse for the attention seeker social networking gets you out there like no other media can. You can be exposed to so thousands, millions who you'd never get a chance to, if it weren't for the digital media. Some people live for attention. We've all had fantasies of being famous. I myself enjoy privacy a little more. It's interesting how social networking sites allow you to control the way people see you.In a sense they allow you to create your reputation. If you want to portray yourself as a party monster all you have to do is show pictures of yourself getting wasted numerous times. If you want to appear intellectual you write about your favorite authors or philosophers along with there associated media. In a way you can control how others see you, especially to those who don't see you in person often.
It seems as if facebook is winning the popularity contest. It has over 300 million members and has given myspace a run for its money. It has a more simple format and a chat program. It doesn't allow users to customize the background and force youto listen to music in it. It did seem as if myspace became a way for people to advertise their music or companies. The criticism of myspace was that people's profiles became way to bloated with fliers and graphics and music. Facebook cleaned it up with a simple white background. And the masses went to facebook.
I have to admit that it is interesting to see people's profiles and what they write and who they are friends with. A person can spend hours and hours on facebook, and that's precisely what I hate it so much. It has become the conduit for which all social interaction takes place. I've lived with people who were on facebook or myspace almost every hour that they were online. It takes up so much of people's time that they lose touch with real social human interaction. Like I said before I see the benefits of social networking sites, but I don't take part in them because they can become addictive and result in a deficit of real interaction, I don't like people knowing who I know or what I say to those people I know, and mostly, I don't like people from my past being able to track me down and obtain information on me. This blog is anonymous. All you know about me is my name and maybe where I live. You know a great deal about my thoughts on a number of topics but not my identity. And that's the way I like it.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
So how can we "christians" be appalled when we see those in the middle east doing almost exactly what the holy scripture says they should do? It clearly says in the Bible that for a woman who enters a marriage in which "the tokens of virginity be not found...the men of her city shall stone her with stones that she die."(Deuteronomy 22:20-21) Wow. So the west has caught up with the fact that actually stoning someone today for having sex before marriage seems a bit extreme, but parts of the middle east haven't, and when they do so we criticize them for not behaving morally when indeed the holy Bible, the text for which this great country was(supposedly)founded on says to do just that which the muslims in the middle east are doing. So who are the hippocrates here?
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I disagree. While is do agree first that yes man-made laws can be changed at a moments notice and are therefore only binding when they are enforced and in power. I also believe that God's laws change over time too and that they are not permanent and that evolving morals can be a good thing.
First a person or persons can re-write a religion, I mean literally re-write the doctrine on which the religion is based on. All you have to do is look at the different sects with in the religions. Joseph Smith founded the Mormon church in upstate new york on a vision he had, and re-wrote the christian faith with new rules and regulations. The Shiites and the Sunnis disagree and a great number of things even though they all pray to essentially the same God. In fact, Islam is a complete re-writing of Christianity and Judaism.
Once slavery was excepted as the norm, then it wasn't. The Bible justifies slavery, but intelligent thinking, moral people decided it wasn't justified under any circumstances, and they changed moral attitudes toward slavery. If biblical morals were written in stone, we'd still have slavery and we'd still be stoning people to death for adultery and working on the sabbath.
Do you want to live in a society like that?
Let me explain.
If a christian were to say raping and torturing a child is morally wrong he is missing the one part that should be added to the end that allows for the child to be raped and tortured if God commands him or her to do so. The jews on their way out of exodus were commanded by God to kill and rape all the other tribes that stood in their way to the land of Israel, the land that God gave to them. It was morally right for the jews to do so at that time and therefore it's possible that God can command some people again to kill other people.
So, the christian must say that killing and raping a child is morally wrong except when God orders you to do so. So basically when God orders you to do so, then everything is permitted.
Is it just me or does the God of the Bible command us to do some pretty wicked things in his name? Well as they say "the Lord works in mysterious ways."
Saturday, November 21, 2009
TWO: 'You shall not make for yourself a carved image--any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.'
THREE: 'You shall not take the name of the LORD your God in vain.'
FOUR: 'Remember the Sabbath day, to keep it holy.'
FIVE: 'Honor your father and your mother.'
SIX: 'You shall not murder.'
SEVEN: 'You shall not commit adultery.'
EIGHT: 'You shall not steal.'
NINE: 'You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.'
TEN: 'You shall not covet your neighbor's house; you shall not covet your neighbor's wife, nor his male servant, nor his female servant, nor his ox, nor his donkey, nor anything that is your neighbor's.'
What about Thou shall not rape? Or Thou shall not molest children? Or Thou shall not worship money(not just your neighbors)? Or Thou shall not have or keep human slaves? What a jealous God who devotes the first 3 commandments to himself and not some of the supposed universal truths that we live by today that I think would be better and more useful than to condemn worshiping another God.
The argument is made by religious people again and again. “Without religion we wouldn’t know right from wrong.” I deeply disagree and let me tell you why. First off what is right and wrong? Is it relative to the culture, I think so. I don’t think that there are universal rights and wrongs. I can say that it is wrong to kill and steal and rape, the most basic evils that just about every society condemns. But what about killing in war, or self defense? Is it ok to kill in defense of your country, your religion or your freedom? There are times where it can be argued that killing is justified in some circumstances.
As to the basic question of whether we need divine information to know what is right or wrong, think about this point. Think if how complicated our man-made laws are here in the U.S. regarding every aspect of our society from children to the elderly to the credit cards in our wallets, to the dying, to the unborn. Our man-made laws are extremely complex so much so that you have to practically be a lawyer to understand your credit card agreement. Think about the internet, when this new technology came out we had to sit down and come up with rules and regulations and laws regarding what would be right and wrong on the World Wide Web. Would there be an expectation of privacy? Would it be free and open and not controlled by a monopoly? Would there be penalties for stealing information online? What would happen to child pornography senders and receivers?
We had to sit down and write all these rules about what is right and wrong, and we didn’t need divine intervention. In other countries their rules differ on what is right or wrong. My argument is simple: if we intelligent primates can think up extremely complex laws regarding every aspect of our society then we must have been able to think up the ten commandments or all the morals in the Bible, Torah, and Koran and all the other religious texts.
I think that he is a very bright voice for reason and if you're interested in the subject of religion you should definitely check him out.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
I think that a lot of our problems with bad people are due to the fact that we have a lot of bad parents. Abusive, neglectful, or entirely absent. There are people who have way too many kids. No one today should be having 5 kids, or 8 kids. I think people should have 2 kids maximum. In third world countries where people don't have access to contraceptives or where religion or cultural reasons forbid sex education, condoms, birth control or abortions, and where people are extremely poor, they are reproducing at an alarming rate. There is massive over population in many third world countries. This creates more poverty.
It is true every child is born innocent. They have no choice in what circumstances, economically, geographically, they are born into. But their parents are. When an adult chooses to bring a child into this world they are playing God. They know what type of situation that child is going to be born into. If people are so poor they can't even afford to buy a pair of shoes, why do they have so many kids that they are unable to care for? There are cultural reasons why people have lots of kids, many traditional cultures require a woman to bare lots of kids. It is a left over from our primitive days where humans were numbered in the few millions and there was rampant disease that killed a third of all babies born.
So, we are left with this instinct to have babies, have babies, have babies, and now there are almost nearly 7 billion of them and the earth's population will double in another 50 years or so.
I think we need to stop this ridiculous idea that we must populate and have lots of kids. There are too many kids on the planet and they are mostly coming from extremely poor parents who can't even afford to support themselves.
This is one reason why I am totally pro-choice when it comes to abortion and disagree with religion on issue relating to reproduction and contraceptives. I believe old school thinking, whether religiously based or not is ruining the lives of our children and the future of our planet and humanity.
Over the years as I've gotten older I began to turn away from hip hop and the hip hop lifestyle. Mind you, everyone who listens to hip hop doesn't behave or act a certain way, but generally hip hop culture produces a certain mentality that I think promotes ignorance, and is self destructive.
Over 50% of inner city high school students are dropping out, this has been happening for quite some time. Rappers brag about dropping out of school to sell drugs, how they hated learning and cut class. How many rappers brag about getting straight A's and pursuing higher education? Exactly.
Rappers are almost obligated to get involved in some legal trouble, as it adds to their street credibility. Getting caught with a gun, beating up a girlfriend or someone else, getting caught with drugs, knocking up random girls and getting them pregnant, all are positive acts that help rappers get respect and provide subject matter in their material. Almost every rapper has knocked up a girl and got her pregnant.
The materialism in hip hop speaks for itself. This worship of money and materialism as if it is the most important thing in the world is ridiculous. There are so many hip hop videos that show rappers with wads of cash and jewelry, with a face that says "look what I got, bitch, aren't you jealous?"
What impression does this leave on the minds of the listeners? Let's face it, hip hop culture is all about instant gratification, jealousy, envy, showing off, and worse of all greed. It's kind of like Wall Street, only drugs and albums are the main sources of income.
The critics say positive hip hop doesn't sell. I understand this, it's the same reason why sex sells in the movies and violence does too. I just wish there was a more intellectual sub genre of hip hop that was positive and also commercially viable. And I wish that we didn't have this incredible ridiculously ignorant standard for which we judge our rappers and what rappers are to have done. I wish "ghetto credibility" was a thing of the past.
Don't get me wrong, I respect the format of hip hop as an art form, but I will not embrace the culture of ignorance.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
It wasn't much of a summer anyway. It will probably be a long cold winter, but who knows, mother nature has a way of always surprising us.
I almost forgot about this blog. No one reads it and I don't really care.
I think I'll start writing about my politics and my huge interest in sociology, economics, religion and human nature. I have all these ideas in my head and I talk about them with my friends. But words disappear into thin air and are forgotten. The written word lasts much longer, so I feel I should write what I think so that it could exist maybe, possibly forever.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
When you can make music you can really impress people. I've always respected good musicians and I want to become one. Music has been my biggest passion through out my whole life. Other things have come and gone. I'm not trying to be a rock star or even in a band, I can't commit to that either. I just like making music for fun. It's a great hobby.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I conjured up this this idea for the New York City subway, after one day not too long ago when I wanted a seat on the train and a "gravitationally challenged" person was taking up two seats, instead of the usual one and a half. I think that since "gravitationally challenged" people take up more space, it is only fair that they should pay more money to ride the train. Basically, we should pay for space.
It would work like this, to ride the subway you'd pay a penny for every pound you weigh. You weigh 250 lbs, you pay $2.50, you weigh 130 lbs, you pay $1.30. We'd all have to carry a new metrocard, and with this we'd swipe the machine and right before we walk through the turnstile, we'd have to step on a scale embedded into the ground that would digitally calculate our weight, including everything we carry. The fare would be calculated at 1 penny per pound, and that would be the price we are charged to enter the subway. So yes "gravitationally challenged" people would pay more. However, this system would encourage people to loose weight and live healthy, since they wouldn't want to have to pay more money. I think it's an ingenious idea, and most of us would actually be paying less than we pay now, including me. I feel this proposal is necessary because "gravitationally challenged" people do indeed take up a lot more space in areas where space isn't abundant, like the subway, and that means a lot less space for those of us who are not "gravitationally challenged."
I think my proposal is reasonable, fair and balanced, and I'm usually right.
Monday, August 24, 2009
I haven't been keeping up to date on a lot of IT shit. I really should because in this industry you can never fall off the bandwagon. Summer ain't over yet, there is still actually another month of it. I'm always in school no matter what so its not like I have a vacation.
I haven't been working out a lot either. I mean I look good. Sometimes I look in the mirror and I think "damn." My chest looks nice, even though I'm skinny I'm happy that I don't have a flat bird chest. I got muscle tits. All I wish for is about another 15 pounds of muscle, that's it, and I'll be fine. I have a very fast metabolism which makes it very hard for me to gain weight. I don't have a really big appetite either. I've been basically 160-165 pounds since I graduated high school. Although my weight has dipped to 150 at times. It's funny because I want to gain weight unlike everyone else in America who wants to lose weight. I can lose a pound a day if I really want to. It's not a problem.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Listen to kids who grew up in NY. Listen to their accent. NYers have a great slang that we use. Kids who grew up in NY do tend to be a little ghetto. Almost every kid in NY says the word "nigga" as if it was dude or man. Nobody else does that outside on NY. White kids in California don't use the "N" word, unless they're being racist. I'm not saying it's right or wrong it's just something about NY culture. I guess its because the hip hop culture started here, and that's why aspects of black culture are so ingrained here in the NY culture. I'm not sure exactly.
NY is the drug capital of the world. Every other friend of mine sold drugs growing up. And just about everyone was using. All the rich yuppies on Wall Street do drugs, most likely coke. If you didn't do drugs to me it seemed you were in the minority. Or maybe, my perception is just skewed in favor of drugs because my friends did drugs growing up, I'm not sure.
You can party hard in NY too. There are 10,000 bars and clubs in NY. Before I started going out I'd party at my friends cribs. We'd listen to music or make music, since many of my friends were musicians, and we'd drink and smoke. It was fun back then and I'm glad I lived it. I just wished that I had kept a journal back then to have documented some of the experiences, and turn it into a book.
Like I said I wouldn't have wanted to grow up anywhere else.
At some point in our lives when we grow older we realize that we aren't the best, or cutest or the most special, although a few people still continue to feel that way. It's a very weird time in a child's life when he or she comes to that realization. We have to give our kids confidence because they are going to need it in this world. I don't feel my parents gave me enough confidence when I was growing up. I don't blame them for it necessarily, I think they were to young and inexperienced as parents. People back in the eighties didn't have all the knowledge that we have today when it comes to parenting. That is why I plan on waiting a long time to become a parent, if I do. I'm going to wait until my mid 30s until I even think about it. Even Barack Obama did that. It makes a person a better parent for sure.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
My New Year's resolution this year was simply only to have more fun. I had a very boring 2008, and most of my entertainment was watching the election. This summer I've been going out every weekend partying and it's been great, with a few bad nights thrown in, it always happens. I still don't have my shit together, figuratively speaking. I'd like to be making more money so that I don't have to do everything cheap when I go out. Also, I always feel I need better friends. There are always things about the people I'm around that I don't like. Everyone I know has some issues that annoy me, such as there always broke, or they have a bad schedule, or they have a wife that wont let them hang out. I guess I should be thankful that about what I have.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I don't have a weight problem at all, in fact I worry that i'm too skinny. I want to gain about 10 pounds of muscle. I feel being 175 lbs. is ideal for me and I'm really about 160-165. I have a fast metabolism that means if I skip a meal I can loose a few pounds. Sometimes when I'm busy I do skip meals and I notice my weight dropping. I hit a low of 150 recently and I don't like how I look when I'm too skinny.
I've noticed that my stomach is getting bigger and that really bothers me. When I gain weight it usually goes straight to my gut. And I know that when your gut gets bigger you will eventually reach a point where you are very hard pressed to get it flat and under control. Essentially you reach a point of no return. If you on the other hand can control it and keep it hard and tight, you will never get to that point.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Sunday, August 9, 2009
This is what I believe. And this is something I think we should all ask ourselves. Are we free individuals or are we controlled by God's Will? Is there a God?
Monday, August 3, 2009
She didn't behave in the way I describe women on my list. She didn't care about money, which is good, I actually didn't have to spend almost any money on her. We'll see how it progresses.
Maybe I'll make a list of things about women that I like, but it might be a bit shorter.
Friday, July 31, 2009
1. I hate how women think it's perfectly OK to gain lot's of weight when you settle down with them.
2. I hate how women are pre-programmed to just want to settle down and have kids.
3. I hate it how women judge a man by what he has rather than who he is on the inside.
4. I hate how women aren't dirty perverts like how us men are.
5. I hate how women can go long periods of time with out sex and be totally fine with it.
6. I hate how women are totally obsessed with how sexy they are, and then they don't want to be looked at as sex objects.
7. I hate how women go out at night dressed all sexy and then say they aren't looking for someone to have sex with.
8. I hate how women use sex to get what they want out of men.
9. I hate it when women make a big ass deal when you try to talk to them, like you just violated their personal space or something and broke down there defensive barrier they use to protect themselves with.
10. I hate it when women expect you to pay for shit and then they consider themselves feminists who think men and women should be equal, you should be paying for your own damn shit then.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
When I first got into the field I didn't know anything. I was lost. When I'd get hit with a hardcore IT problem I'd freak out, but now I'm so much more confident while I realize I still have a lot to learn. But learning never stops as well all know. In the IT field we have to constantly strive for excellence. If we get lazy we will get sidelined by our competition and get left off by the changing technology, and it does move fast. So hold on tight.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Other than that I'm having an easy day at my job. It is an IT consulting company and it's pretty slow today, later I will do some support at a remote client in their computer lab. I lost my wallet on vacation a few weeks ago and it is really annoying because I had to get all my cards again and I haven't bought a new wallet yet so I have to carry cards in my pocket and I forget some now and then. I need a new wallet asap.